guh.

Maeby went into surgery today. Whatever she managed to get her teeth on got itself stuck around her colon and they had to cut the dead tissue part of it out and put the colon back together. So baby is still there and there's a feeding tube in her and a drainage tube for the intestine stuff that was leaking out into her midsection -- I really don't know how to describe this shit accurately, I apologize. The vet was all, "You can come visit her later if you want, but she'll be really out of it."

I can't do it, I can't see her like that. But she made it through the surgery and the vet says she's not out of the woods yet cause of the feeding tube and blah fucking blah blah something something I can't remember cause I was too busy trying to keep my cool on the phone. So, yeah. I came home early cause all I was doing at work was sitting in my office staring at the computer screen in between bouts of shutting my office door and crying. Which, wtf, crying is totally not me. Especially at work. D:

The fun part was the thirty minute ride home. Now, ya'll know I curse like a sailor, but I don't think I've ever said that many curse words that loud and shrill in the span of half an hour. I think I even made some up. Yelling at people who couldn't drive, yelling at people not in the car with me, just yelling for the hell of it. I think I set a record. I also scratched a hole on the left knee of my pants. Being very angry -- now that's more me. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.

I also rescheduled my doctor's appointment. I couldn't deal with that today too. So I'm going next week.

And now I'm listening to my Silent Hill: 0rigins soundtrack that came today from Japan (holy shit one good thing) and attempting to get work done that I didn't get done at work on my laptop -- while Thing is scratching the couch I am sitting on. She knows something is wrong.

Thank all you peoples who responded on the Cat Question post a couple days back. I was going to respond to the comments last night but I can't bring myself to do it. So I just wanted to thank you dudes. Time to work now.

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These are my five favorite songs right now. They are on constant repeat in my car and at work and it's kind of scary that I can imitate every single word, noise and effing breath in each song. I need to spend my time doing better things.

Break -- The Cinematics

O.R.T. -- Akira Yamaoka

Human -- The Cinematics (this song is brilliant)

We've Got Some Breaking Up To Do -- Private

The Kids From Orange County -- Moving Units

Put these bitches on Rock Band so I can pwn them. :| Actually, the last two can be on something else. I want to dance to it, not sing. But not DDR, cause you can't really dance on that you just jump on the arrows. Which kind of makes me want to play again.

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