your joy is my low

Remember when I said Zekk was my fandom bicycle?

Yeah. I'll just leave you with this little snippet I found in my "unfinishedstarwarsshit.txt" file today. Uh, slash warning? Except not... really? I don't even know.

( Kyp's fingers clenched around the edge of the dresser. Why was the girl in his bed talking to Master Skywalker... )


So this is pretty much Zekk:



We all know he secretly liked it though okay.

(There was also a scene later where Jacen Solo notices a mark on Zekk's neck when he ties his hair back at the temple. Zekk gives one of these :| to a smirking Kyp across the room over Jacen's shoulder and Jacen notices it and goes batshit. Hey Jacen, u jelly.)

It was October of 2003. The New Jedi Order was ending and I was starting a Star Wars fanfiction series. It was called The Feigned. It was originally supposed to be one story and the song "Simply Being Loved" by BT made me do it. The bad guy (who was originally just a placeholder), Gadell, was gonna die. I had too much fun with the whole thing though. I started writing a second story. I stopped writing it so close to the end and sort of abandoned it. One day I was bitten in the ass by it, that damn writing bug, and I finished the second story and started a third. This was in May of 2007. I've written a little here and there since then.

I'm in the middle. Stuck. Just about abandoned it, like I do with too many things I start and don't finish.

To break this streak, I'm finishing this damn story -- this damn series. I'm finishing this trilogy because I've put too much time into it to let it die like thissssss. Oh yeah, reading it back now I know there are moments of absolute dorkishly horrible cheese and moments of wtf crack and moments of total squick (lol Jacen and Jaina almost kiss in disguise I still love it) and my writing style is probably just as ghetto now as when I started but damn it, I AM FINISHING THIS BITCH.

The first story had 58,942 words. The second had 95,538. And this one has 63,218 so far.

I will not stop this until I'm done.

Here are the stories: who is in them, some pairings(?) and some possible story tags. Heh. XD


The Feigned (post-New Jedi Order)

STORY ONE - SIMPLY BEING LOVED
Characters: Jacen Solo, Tenel Ka, Gadell Vessau [he was only a placeholder oc until I thought of a good bad guy BUT NOT ANYMORE], random bits of Tahiri Veila, Jaina Solo, The Dreamteam aka Zekk and Lowbacca, Anakinghost, etc.
Pairings: straight up J/TK with a hardcore side of WANGST smeared across the board
Story Tags: Jacen tied to chair lol, cracked out & pissed off Queen Mother, I love dancinggggg, BIG PIMPIN'?, wait what?, blood, bitchy lightsaber fights, are there any guards in this effing Palace?, mmmm gardens, teenage cheese fest, gadell/jacen...?, super secret surprise mission, it was you all along!, magical Terminator arm, Jacen the handmaiden

STORY TWO - URBANIA'S VOID
Characters: Jacen Solo, Tenel Ka, Zekk, Gadell (and then the whole hee-haw gang later)
Pairings: J/TK, J/K/J?(...Z?), Z/Al?, G/T?
Story Tags: lots of disguises, Jag and Kyp in makeup, lots of parallel crap, BAD GUYZ, fishnet, DANCE CLUBS, pretty lights, Jacen and Zekk on mother-effing hoverboards AWWW YEAH, drugs are bad mmmkay, Alema is good but still a ho, LOWBACCA!, rescue mission gone horribly wrong, ew what is in that alleyway?, I love futuristic cityscapes, so that's where Raynar Thul went!!11, rescue mission gone horribly wrong part deux, see if you can find the Silent Hill inspiration!, color symbolism ahoy!, can anyone rescue anyone correctly here?, back! from! the! dead!, crazy effing timeline

STORY THREE - ABSOLVED
Characters: Jacen Solo, Tenel Ka, a whole new slew of assassins [emphasis on the ass], Tahiri, Gadell, Zekk, Allana?
Pairings: J/TK, G/T?, Z/?, ?/?WHAT
Story Tags: Dantooine is so quiet and peaceful WHY ARE YOU STABBING ME OH MYYYYGAAAAA, Gadell/Tahiri/Zekk = the detective team of NEVER GETTING ANYTHING DONE, forest porn?, Jared Leto hot Hapans, also angry bitter Hapans, Jacen washing dishes, Tenel Ka laying multiple smackdowns - suitors her ass, some sort of time tra--wait flow walking? no, overprotective Papa Jasa, Zekk the ACTION MAAAAAAAN!, stairwell makeout of the non-main characters, Anakin Skywalker hates sand but Jacen Solo likes dirt everywhere, magical hallucinations of evil things, SOURFRY NOODLESSSSS, basement of utter and complete doom

Because maybe, just maybe, in an alternate universe Jacen Solo didn't turn into an asshole and die. :(


(Seriously, my Jacen/Tenel Ka are River Phoenix/Laura Prepon for this whole thing. <3 THIS IS OLD SCHOOL. XD)