MY FANDOM AND BOY INTERESTS HAVE BEEN ROLLING INTO ONE ALL THESE YEARS WHAT IS THIS I DON'T EVEN XDDDD aka nerdy fangirl rantings ahead
So the other day on Twitter, Wil Wheaton linked to a blog post he had written about the 25th Anniversary Reunion he attended with the Stand By Me
cast. It's an absolutely wonderful post
- nostalgic and kind of heartbreaking all at the same time. And of course, it got me thinking about River Phoenix.
If you've known me for some amount of time, you know about my love for this kid. I say kid now because I'm actually older than he was when he died back in 1993. This post pretty much contains my realization that I sort of have a type
- in both real and fictional worlds, apparently, hahaha. XDA little background here:
Around '96, I was looking through a magazine or catalog or something and I saw a picture of some dude. And this dude was effing hot
. I took this picture to my sister and this happened--
Me: "WHO IS THIS DUDE?"
Valerie: "That's River Phoenix." *pause* "He's dead."
Valerie: "He was an actor. He was actually in Stand By Me, which was based off of a Stephen King story."
Me: "I must see this movie."
Valerie: "Yeah, you'd probably like it."
So I was with my Mom and Duane one weekend, wandering around Blockbusters and I saw the box...
Me: "MOM, MOM I MUST SEE THIS MOVIE."
Mom: "Okay, but you have to watch it with us, cause it's rated R." *turns to Duane* "Why is this movie rated R? I don't remember anything crazy in it... it's been a long time since I've seen it though."
We get back and they go out to pick up dinner and leave me alone. What do I do? Put the tape in and start watching it. I got almost to the end of the treehouse scene before I stopped it and rewound the tape for when they got back. It was okay though, cause I already knew I had fallen in love with that kid. Did you see the face he made when they introduced Chris Chambers? He. Was. Gorgeous.
After seeing that movie (and of course loving it), I hunted down every single thing relating to River Phoenix I could find. Movies, books, clippings from magazines - this was a little difficult since he had been popular in the late 80's and then early 90's, then died of a drug overdose in '93. That was utterly depressing, by the way. As you can see in Wheaton's blog post, no one really saw it coming. He had always been against that kind of stuff too.
Besides that, he was pretty much a sweetheart. He was an animal rights activist and a total family boy. And I thought that was darling
Enter my fandoms
. Hello Star Wars
. Greetings Jacen Solo
When I started to get heavily into the Expanded Universe fandom (writing fanfiction, talking to people - including some of you still to this day <3333, all that awesome stuff), I would think of actors when I read the books. It's something I've kind of always done in the back of my head. It made it easier for me to picture characters sometimes. Who was Jacen Solo? Well, that was River Phoenix, of course. Animal nerd, sweetheart, fights for what he believes in. Also, DAT HAIR. When the Japanese covers for the New Jedi Order came out, I was excited (FANGASMS EVERYWHERE) to see I hadn't been the only one. LOOK AT THAT MOFO OHH SHI--
I think my <3 for River had kind of caused my love for Jacen to grow and vise versa. Besides just reading the books, he became my Jacen in fanthings as well. I mean, fanfictions
. IT WAS TOO PERFECT, DUDE. D:
It always helped that he had played Harrison Ford's son in The Mosquito Coast as well as young Indiana Jones in Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade... I mean, it just worked all around! XD
(Fun note: He also was in a movie called "A Night in the Life of Jimmy Reardon" - he was the main character. Jason Court was also in this movie. Jason Court is the man who played Kyle Katarn in Dark Forces
. STAR WARS CONNECTIONS, AHOY! XD) TO THE LEFT:
River & Harrison (JACEN & HAN IT WOULD BE SO PERFECT D:), then as young Indy and then River & Jason (LOL JACEN AND KYLE HAY GUYZ)
Looking at it now, it's sort of ironic. Jacen Solo was also overtaken by something he always condemned and then was killed. THAT IS WHERE I KIND OF GET CREEPED OUT.
Years later, enter Jared Padalecki.
I had exhausted the hell out of every River Phoenix picture for Star Wars: EU related asshattery and was depressed that there would never be any others. I had also started watching some weird show called Supernatural. Of course, me watching this show = "lololol look at these brothers arguing. one is so nice and one is like LET'S KILL ALL THE BAD THINGS CAUSE WE HAVE THE POWER! it's like jacen and anakin except with the ages swapped. like this tall lanky dude with the floppy brown hair and puppy eyes is all OMG WE CAN'T HURT ANYONE, LIKE JACEN-- LIKE JACEN
Then that shit happened
, heh. I started looking up this guy. Animal rights activist, family boy, all around sweetheart.
Me: what no, how does this keep happening :|
Then SOMETHING ELSE HAPPENED: Looking up pictures of this new giant dude, I find a photo that made me flip for a few seconds. I'm sure my heart had to skip a beat cause how did a picture of River Phoenix get into this batch of pictures from a photoshoot of this sasquatch Jared guy. And later, going back through River pictures, a picture of this moose snuck into River photos somehow - EXCEPT NO CAUSE THAT'S RIVER PLAYING THE GUITAR WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE MOOSE?
Left - River, Right - Jared
Left - Jared, Right - River
(I've posted those before... a long time ago
in a galaxy far f--
SHUT UUPPPP. XD)
So my River/Jacen line turned into a River/Jacen/Jared triangle and one became my tiny dork and one became my giant dork and everything in the fandom corner of my brain had settled peacefully. Jared plays a really mean (and effing awesome) bad guy (demon!Lucifer!anysortofevil!Sam is the best thing ever) and would make a killer Darth Caedus. As you can see by the quote in the subject line, River was just like that
- he was the little, wide-eyed, goofball Jacen Solo.
But looking at all three: two of my favorite actors and my favorite fictional character -- there's a type.
I don't know when this was all realized but at least I have typed it all out and let myself know the links just aren't in my fandom-hazed brain, hehehehehe. XD
P.S. River. Freakin'. Phoenix. Please watch Running On Empty
, Stand By Me
, The Mosquito Coast
& I Love You to Death
- DARLING. <3
P.S.S. I LOVE 80'S TRAILERS. XD
P.S.S.S. Here is River molesting a tree. PERFECT?